So lay me down, I'm lonely

*sigh* You know, for as long as I can remember, I have always told myself..I will never be like my mother. I could never be her. Everything I could possibly despise in a person, she is it. I hate saying that about my own mother, the person who gave birth to me, but it's the truth. I think I'm her. A younger version. How did I get to this point? Where did I go wrong? I must have taken a left when I should have taken a right. This isn't ok. I'm not ok. I'm so lost, and it scares me. How do I get out of it? How do I find my way home? Do I even have a home?

I decided to get back on WW full throttle. I'm hoping that by putting everything I have into it, I can focus on something positive, and hopefully lose a buttload of weight in the process! I also started that Couch to 5K program that some friends of mine from Galleywinter told me about. Yesterday was my first day, and I'm not going to lie, it was pretty hard. Running is amazing to me though, one of the best outlets for me. So I'm hoping I stick to it and get in shape to run a 5K in December! :) Wish me luck because I'm pretty sure I need as much as I can get.

I want you staplegunned right to my side all of the time

gosh it's been awhile.

Life got pretty crazy there for awhile. I had surgery. Made a horrible mistake. You know, the usual. Things are pretty much back on track for the time being. I am still needing butt loads of time to find myself, but I'm hoping that if I devote 100% of myself to it, I will be successful. Time, it does wonders. Heals the body, heals the mind. I'm hoping it will be that good to me. Lord knows I need it.